Friday, September 9, 2011

Hardest time of my life?

Everyone said that the time between getting my call and leaving on my mission would be one of the hardest times of my life.  I was warned that that time would be filled with


and trials

and more men than I could handle.

But I have not found that to be the case at all.  Men have not been rushing to my door, or falling at my feet, I have received no marriage proposals in the last three months, and I don't expect any will come in the next 10 days...  In fact, since I moved home a month and half ago, I don't even think I have seen any eligible men my age, let alone talked to one.  

And I must admit, I'm a little disappointed. 

I mean really, what was all the hype about?  On a more serious note though, these past few months have been wonderful.  I got to see my entire family this summer and spend more time with each of them than I have got to in a long time.  What a blessing it was to be with them all.  I am so grateful for eternal families!!  I have taken the challenge of my bishopric to write down in a journal each day how I have seen the Lord's hand in my life that day as President Eyring talked about in his talk "O Remember, Remember" given in General Conference a few years ago, and I have seen it make a difference already.  As I take the time to ponder over the happenings of my day I have recognized the Lord's hand in my life.  I realize, now more than ever, how aware He is of me and how much He loves me and wants me to be happy.  I have always believed that I have a Father in Heaven who loves me, but that point has been driven home as I have accepted this challenge to look for His hand each day and to not only recognize it, but acknowledge it. 

So where are all those trials and temptations I was warned about?  I'm not really sure... but I happily embrace their absence and the love and growth and learning that have filled their place instead.  Though I wouldn't have minded a little romantic intrigue.  Just to mix things up a bit ;)

1 comment:

  1. When you're out in the field is when all the flirts come out of the woodwork.